Been so busy...
School
School
School
School.

This semester is totally going to kill me, especially once Brian goes back on a ship!  I have so much reading and studying to do that its ridiculous.  Then I got a new gadget to totally distract me...a Samsung Intercept android phone.  BEST.THING.EVER.  I seriously cannot stop playing with it.  Then now that I downloaded some apps for Wes, he wants to play and play and play with it too.  The app he loves is kind of like that game Patchworkz, and he loves just fitting the pieces to where they belong.  He's gotten really good at it.  He's my little 2.5 year old genius.

End of the binky era.

I did it.  I took his binky away yesterday before his nap and he hasn't had it since.  I sat him down and told him that he had to be a big boy now and big boys don't have binkies.  Last night he told me that he didn't want to be a big boy, and I told him that he had to be!  He asked for it tonight as well, but he hasn't been too upset about his lack of binky.  So far, so good with everything.

Brian and I were looking at pictures of him from a year ago and we both can't believe how much he has changed.  I don't want him to grow up!  I wish I could keep him at this age forever.

We're on day three of the potty training and Wes is doing so well.  Not one accident today!  I feel like we're going at this a bit backwards since he still has a binky.

  I've been taking it away lately but I know we have to get rid of it completely.  He never uses them in public, and we're pretty much down to naps and bedtime.  His binky is his favorite thing in the whole wide world and I feel like a monster for having to take it away!  I wish he would give it up on his own but I don't see any end in sight.  I definitely don't want him to be like my older brother and his binky obsession.  He'd turn the house upside down when he would get home from kindergarten just looking for a binky!

I talked to Wes about the binky fairy and he was like no way.  I still want my binky.  I've tried using the give it to other babies trick, and that didn't work.  We tried the cold turkey method but Brian gave into that one.  I know it'll be best if we just get over with already but Wes' attachment to his binky is so strong. :(

I've been having a ton of anxiety lately.  I'm not sure if its because I know Brian is leaving soon or just a huge combination of things.  I've always been a nervous wreck so all these big things happening aren't helping my nerves.

Yesterday while changing Wes' diaper yesterday morning, I decided to let him go diaper free to see how he would respond to peeing in the potty.  I didn't even have to tell him to go on the potty, he just did it on his own!  We're on day two and he's only had two accidents, both while wearing underwear.  He seems to know he has to go to the potty while he's naked.  So its working out.  He's two and a half now, so he's at a good age to be potty training.

I have absolutely no motivation to work out anymore.  I just feel so exhausted lately.  I just wonder where my thyroid levels are.  It is a just an insane game to get them to the right levels and the right medication.  Last I went, my levels were at .67 [June]...the last time I went in May, they were at 3.65.  I still have all the same symptoms of hypothyroidism, the only difference is that I haven't been gaining anymore weight.  When they upped my dosage to get to the point I am at now, I lost about 5lbs over the week.  I just really need to get back into running and weight lifting, no more excuses!

I'm hoping to lose at least 25lbs before Brian comes back from his next deployment.  If he leaves in the beginning of September, he won't be back until the beginning of January.  That's plenty of time I hope!  I have about 50lbs to lose, but I'll be happy to lose any weight.  I've just been thinking a lot about heart disease and I really want to be healthy enough to see my great grand children.  I want to live to be at least 90something, not die at the age of 60 or 70 because of heart disease.  We'll just see.  I just wish Kathy was here to workout with me.  It sucks being all alone away from EVERYONE.

Tear Down the House

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Where to begin.